God I miss you!  / Cheri (daughter)
I miss you so much! Damn it, I hate this! I want you and Brian back here where you belong! I could really use someone to talk to right now and I can't call you. I know I am being selfish, but I can't help it. I am tired of missing the most important people in my life! Close

miss u  / Melissa Hutchings (grand daughter )
i swear it hasnt hit me yet that your gone. i pretend i just havent called you in awhile :(

I did stop by on mothers day and leave some flowers on your grave. it was only the second time i had been there but i found it quickly. i only stayed for a sec cuz it was raining and i was crying really hard. i miss you grama Close

Happy belated Mothers Day!  / Cheri (Daughter)

I am so sorry I didn't make here yesterday to wish you a Happy Mothers Day. I hope you had a wonderful day. I wanted so badly to call and talk to you. I miss talking to you mom.

Tim and I have decided to sell the house and move to Ausin Texas. We put the house up for sale a little over a week ago. We made a trip to Texas the week before that and we fell in love with Austin. There are so many more opportunities for Tim & I there. We are so sick of working for dying companies in Michigan. We never know from day to day if we will have a job. Mostly though, we are sick of Michigan winters! This last winter was the straw that broke the camels back! It was too long and too darn cold!

I told dad about our plans and he is not taking it very well. He of course thinks we are crazy. I can not seem to make him understand that this is something we have been wanting to do for a very long time now, and with no little kids at home, now is the time. We spent our youth rasing children, which of course we would not trade for anything in the world, but now our kids are grown and it our turn to do something for us. Dad thinks I am leaving him, I wish he could understand that is just not true. I will still call him regularly like I always do and he can come visit anytime, he is retired what else does he have to do?! :0) But, he is just very upset about it. I sure could use your help with this mom. You were the only one that could calm him down and make him understand things better. I love him, he is my daddy, I don't want to hurt him and that was never my intention. I just want him to be happy for us and excited to have a new place to visit.

I love you mom, I miss you and I will miss you till the day I join you and Brian. Both of you are always in my thoughts and with me every day and no matter where I go.

Happy Belated Mother's Day.

Love,

Cheri

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Hello / Maryln Burrows (sister)

Hi Net

Just dropping by to get in touch. Guess some days are worse then others. Today is one of them.

I went to your house a few days ago. Fred was gone so I went down to take the mail in. Guess I wasnt expecting it to be so hard. I have not been inside your house since you left. It hit me like a ton of bricks. Oh what a feeling. I cried alot there but I guess it was good for me as I had to do it sometime. I sure hope you know how I miss you. I sometimes believe your still here. I guess thats why I cant visit your graveside. Its the reality. But just want you to know how much I miss and love you. You were the best sister. I miss you Net.Love Maryln

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dropping by  / Maryln Burrorws (sisterg)

Hi Net

 So sorry i havnt talked to you in a while. I think of you each day.You should be here with us now. You wernt ready to go but now you are with family there also. Fred stops by quite often. He sure misses you. He looks so alone without you in the truck with him. I miss our chats and I miss your face so much. I do love to hear your voice on the answering machine. Sometimes I call just to hear you. The same with Beaver. I miss you both so much. I sure hope you know when you are in our thoughts  I still cant believe you are both gone. It was just to fast. I hope your birthday was a good one up there. And now Beaver will be celebrating his with you also. Give each other a hug for me.   I love you both and I will always think of you.

                                                                    Love Maryln

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Happy Birthday  / Cheri (Daughter)

I am sorry I didn't make it here to your website yesterday for your birthday. You know I didn't forget. I hope you like the sunflower I put out there for you. It was so cold yesterday mom. I wanted to spend more time with you, but it was bitter cold! Dad had to use a pipe to make a hole so I could put your sunflower in the ground! My poor Brian is covered with ice! I couldn't even see his marker. It makes me so sad.

I wanted to come to your website yesterday but I was so emotionally drained yesterday I just couldn't find the energy. Today hasn't been much better. I have had a miserable headache all day and to make it worse I can't seem to stop crying. I miss you mommy. I miss Brian. It is so unfair!

Brian's birthday is Friday and I am alredy feeling the pain. I screwed up on his last birthday he was here mom. He owed me some money so for his birthday I told him to just keep the money and all I got him was a cake and a card. I did fix him dinner. But that was the last brithday I had with him and I didn't even get him a gift. I live with that memory at every birthday for him now. It hurts mom. 

I hope you celebrated with Brian, Brady, Gena and all the other family there. You were in my thoughts all day. I carry you and Brian in my heart.

I love you. Happy Birthday.

 

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miss you  / Melissa Hutchings (grand daughter )
So I visited Aunt maryln's myspace page today and i couldnt help thinking you should be on my friend list grama. I know if you were still around you probably would have a myspace page. It would have taken us hours to teach you and we would have received many calls from you asking how do i do this or how do i do that.

I really miss you grama!

I'm so busy lately I dont have much time to be sad anymore....but i still am. I miss you SOOOOO much

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Letter from attorney  / Cheri (Daughter)

Dad called me this weekend and said he got a letter from the attorney that he wanted me to read. Tim and I went over yesterday. He warned me that the letter would be hard to read and was it ever! I had to read about how the doctor and his assistant neglected to take care of you as they should have. I had to read step by step how you died. How awful to know that you must have suffered so much and no one helped you till it was too late. I am so sorry you had to go through that mom, you did not deserve to die like that. You had such a big heart and they let that beautiful heart of yours stop beating forever. It just isn't fair. Our family has lost so much.

You were the one person I could talk to about Brian and how much I hurt and missed him. I have no one now to talk to. I know this might sound selfish but they took you away from me and it isn't right!

I miss you every day mom. I miss Brian every day. My life is filled with missing now.

Your birthday will be here soon, we have to face another one without you. You know I will never forget though. I love you.

 

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One sad year ago today..........  / Cheri Daughter
At this time one year ago we were all at the hospital waiting for you to come out of your emergency surgery. We were trying to hold on to the hope that you would be okay. I remember feeling a sense of relief when the doctor came out and told us the surgery was successful, but that you were still in critical condition. I remember thinking "she is alive!" Then you just continued to get worse, everything started shutting down on you. I never thought you would die. I knew it was a possiblity,but you were such a fighter and you did fight. I know you were tired and ready to go home. You fought a hard fight for us mom, but I know it was selfish of me to want you to keep fighting, to have them keep bringing you back again and again, you deserved to rest. Now you are at peace. I am glad that you are not in anymore pain, but the pain in my heart never goes away. I miss my mommy.

So many times I reach for the phone to call you, then I remember, you wont be there. I can't get use to that.

I came across some pictures of you at the birthday bash we threw in honor of Brian on what would have been his 24th birthday and I had to catch my breath. There you were sititng and relaxing. You seemed so relaxed and comfortable in those pictures. You were happy to be with the people you loved most in the world, your family. Now you are with the family you love and missed. I know you are happy and healthy now. 

I am thinking of you today mom. I miss you. This world is not the same without you. 

Give Brian a hug for me mom. I love you both.

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You are always with me  / Cheri (Daughter)
Hi Mom,

Well I made it through both my sugeries just fine. I was afraid of them putting me to sleep, but I just told myself that if I woke up and saw you and Brian that would be okay, and if I woke up and found I was still here an alive, well, that would be okay too, and here I am.

Afton's mom ended up being my nurse for my devaited septum surgery! I didn't recognize her and she wasn't sure it was me. She asked me if I was related to the Street family that lived in Oshtemo, when I told her I lived there, she asked me if I knew Matt! I said "I am Matt's mom" She said "I am Afton's mom" and we both started laughing! Such a small world sometimes. She is the one that gave me my IV, she did a great job, got it the first time and I had hardly any bruising. I wish the nurses had been able to do that for you. You always had such a hard time with those darn IV's!

Speaking of Matt and Afton, they moved this weekend. They just moved about 2 miles, but the apartment is so much nicer and it is in a nicer area, not on such a busy road any more. You never even got the chance to see their first apartment. You went in for your surgery three days after they moved. :(...

Everyone else is doing good. Jason is working a lot of over time right now, but he likes the extra money. He and Tiff seem to be doing well.

I sure do miss not having any kids at home. Can you believe I said that? Don't most parents look forward to their children growing up and moving out on their own? I did at one time, but now, well the house is just too quiet and lonely. I can not believe I am saying this, but I miss all the noise!

Guess I had better sign off for now. I just wanted to stop by and visit for a while. I miss you mom.

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missin you  / Melissa Hutchings (grand daughter )
hey i just came from my moms sight and had started from the beginning of the comments posted....reading them.....then all the sudden there were no more posts from you :( It sure did sadden me. I miss everyone so much. I'm sitting here drinking a bottle of wine...yes i said bottle lol....i dont ever drink so hey i deserve it :) but i dont think its really helping my sadness. I quit smokin over three months ago!! i know youd be proud of me. its so stupid your gone. I wish i could go punch that dr in the nose. True it wouldnt bring you back....but i sure would enjoy doing it. Actually i cant blame him. He's human just like all of us....and we all make mistakes. anyways i miss you....see you when i get there ;-) Close

Missing you  / Cheri (Daughter)
I was just reading some of the things you wrote on Gena's website. I read the things you wrote to Brian all the time and I also visit Brady's website and read as well. So many websites to visit, it is just so unreal! I read your words and I cry. You were such a sweet women. I don't think I ever told you that. You poured out your heart and soul to your grandson's and your daughter-in-law in you posts to them. I know you were hurting and you missed them, but I sure wish you hadn't gone to be with them so soon.

Mom, I miss Brian and I don't know how to stop hurting. Did you tell him how much I miss him when you saw him? Did you tell him that I am not angry at him and I still love him? How can I hurt this much mom and still be alive? How can my heart continue to beat when it is broken into a million peices?

People tell me that God does not give us more than we can handle. HA! What a crock! Sorry but it is. Losing Brian and then you was more than I can handle! I cry myself to sleep every night. My heartaches all the time. It is more than I can handle damn it!

He gave my poor Brian more than he could handle, the poor kid! He finally ended his life to escape the pain. That isn't more than a person can handle????

I just wish people would stop telling me that! It isn't true and I am tired of hearing it. I just wonder why he gives some people so much that they want to die, and others breeze through their lives without hardly as much as a bump along the way. I guess it is true, no one ever said life was fair.

I go on each day with the pain, because for me,  I have no other choice. It doesn't mean that it is not more than I can handle, it just means that I do not have any other choice. If I did you and Brian would still be here.

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Happy Mother's Day  / Cheri (Daughter)
I really miss you today mom. I am taking you some flowers today. I so want to talk to you today. I want to call you and wish you a happy mother's day instead of taking flowers to the cemetary! It just isn't right.

I know you are celebrating with your grandson's today. I miss them too mom. Please give Brian a hug for me. 

I love you mom.

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yahoo / Melissa Hutchings (grand daughter )
Well i just signed into yahoo messanger and saw your name listed in my friend list. I cant explain the feeling that came over me. It made my stomache drop to the floor and made me feel sick. Its so hard to believe that your lil smiley face on there will never be yellow again. I mean well i dont know, i cant exactly explain how i feel. i just feel like your not really gone most of the time. but things like that bring me back to reality....I MISS U GRAMA!!!!!! Close

hello / Melissa Hutchings (grand daughter )
Well i just got done posting on  my moms page and thought id better swing by yours. I just got the internet thats why i havent been by to post. Grampa finally took me and showed me your grave. I havent been back since. its too hard on me. Not only are u buried there but we also put some of my moms ashes in with you. I hope u two are getting along in that close of space lol.  I sure do miss u grama.  I think about u everyday and how u should still be here. I hope grampa is sueing the hell out of that doctor!! And i pray he never operates on anyone ever again. Anyways i miss u and keep watchin over gramps

Luv ya
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Missing You  / Patty (sister/friend)

Hi Net...Wanted to say "HEY" & let you know how very much I miss you. I wish you were here everyday. I always want to call you for something. My life will never be the same without you in it. I want you back so bad it hurts inside. I am sure by now you have seen Dee, Tom's wife. She left us last week to come see you & all. Please give Beaver a great big hug for me. It has been 1 year ago today that he left us! Can not believe it!!! I miss him also & wish he was here. You all stay very close together. I will be back soon. I love & miss you like crazy!

                 I'M DYIN' INSIDE & NOBODY KNOWS IT BUT ME!

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Happy Birthday  / Cheri (Daughter)
Hi Mom,

Made it through the day although it was not easy. I could feel you and Brian holding my hand today. I miss you both more than I could ever put into words. My heart is so heavy with pain.

I had lunch with dad and Aunt Kay today. Do you remember when I first figured out that "Aunt" Kay wasn't really my aunt, but rather my cousin? I was so shocked. I kept saying "No way!" You thought that was the funniest thing. Anyway, we had a nice lunch. We went to "Time Out" because dad said you liked to eat there. We shared memories and a few laughs.

After lunch we stopped and got flowers and took them to you. That was so hard. I wanted to just lay down next to you and  never up! It is so hard to go there and walk away and leave you and Brian. I die inside every time. It is something I will never ever get use to.

I love my daddy and he is good to me, but it is not the same as having my mommy. I know dad would do anything for me, but you were the one I talked to. You were the one I shared my giref over Brian with. You are my mom and I miss you so much.

I know you and Brian celebrated with everyone else that is there with you today. I asked Brian to give you a hug for me and I am sure he did. Give him a hug for me, will you mom? I wish you were both here to hug in person, I would never let go of either of you!

I better sign off now mom, I can't see to type through the tears anymore.

Happy Heavenly Birthday. I love you.

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Miss you like crazy!!!  / Patty D. (sister/friend/everyt-hing)
Hi Net...I am finally  able to visit you. I am sorry I haven't been in sooner, I just couldn't!  I know that you are watching over all of us, but I wish you here to do that. You were not only my sister but my best friend. You were also my "MOM" for 40 years of my life!!! I miss all the visiting we did. I miss all of our talks...yes, & gossip too. I am so very lost without you. I need you!!! I never just pick up the phone to call anyone like I did with you. Can't talk Country Music with anyone, can't hear about what is going on with everyone, can't get questions answered, can't hear who died in B.C., you always called to tell me, just can't do anything without you. I miss you soooooo much. I hurt everyday!!! I will go for now, but I will be back. I love & miss you with every inch of my being!!!


"I'M DYING INSIDE..AND NOBODY KNOWS IT, BUT ME!"

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Birthday / Maryln Burrows (sister-friend)
Net,
 I just needed to say Happy Birthday to you. I wanted so much to call you this morning. I really do miss you.  I try not to think of you being gone,but I know you are. Guess I am just having a bad day today thinking of you. I hope you and Beaver are celebrating it with all of our family members.  Do they celebrate birthdays in Heaven? I know everything up there is always happy. Anyway, I just want to tell you how much I miss you and love you. So  Happy Birthday to my sister and friend.    I love you,  Maryln Close

Just saying Hi  / Maryln Burrows (sister)
Hi Net,
  I sure hope you can see this. I love to think you can. It is my only way to communicate with you. I sure do miss you,and I think of you every day.  Fred comes down every day for coffee. I hope we are helping to take care of him for you. He is still having a hard time. But,we are here for him. I owe it to you my friend.  I sure do wish you were here to visit us with him. If I did have to go to the truck to talk to you because it was hard for you to walk and come inside. I would walk to your house if I had to now. It would be worth it just to have you back.  It is hard to write to you knowing your not here. But like I said "It is my way of keeping in touch"  So I will say good-bye and I will keep writing.  I love you so much ,and I hope I always showed you how much when you were here. I feel we both knew our love for each other.    I love and miss you.
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